i just found out someone stole 100 dollars from my wallet. i had 160 left from going to the concert with sarah. the only reason i had the money was to do groceries. i never got to do groceries last night because i decided id rather go home instead and talk to my friends. so i never looked into it. i looked in my wallet this morning to add all my money to my check i just cashed and only 60 bucks was left. i cant think of ever touching the money in my wallet at all yesterday. i didnt spend it. it makes no sense. and i dont know how it could have happened. my purse was locked away. but theres no security cameras in the office. you would think if someone was going to steal they would take everything. at least i never put my money from the check i just got in there and kept it in my pocket.

the weird thing is my purse looked untouched when i took it out. it looked the same way it dose when i put stuff in there. i only had this weird vauge impression i should look at my wallet. maybe it was trying to tell me something.

i called management and told them aboyut it. but sionce theres no security cameras up there they dont know how there going to track it down. i dont know what use going to the police would be. i dont see how they could help. im out 100 dollars of money i bust my ass for every week. its just not fair,. some freeloading fuck must have found some way to get into the lock or something. im fucking poor enough without people stealing from me. id keep the wallet on me but its against store policy to have wallet on your person near the cash drawrs. some stupid fucking asshole who probably has more money than me probably took it. every scrap of money i have extra i save to go to holland. i have a lot put by but i still need everything i can save so i have money to eat on while im there. ive been making myself live with the minimum so i can affoard this trip and have extra to spend there.

i keep wondering who it could be. after the fight i had with this mentally unstable person named patrick i keep wondering if it could have been him. but he was taken out of the store. maybe it was that homeless guy that wonders in now and then. would he know how to pick a lock? maybe it was one of the jerk kids that work in produce, or maybe it was that bitch elaina that works on the service desk. i just dont know who it could have been. i dont know who else could have gotten a key like mine. it makes no sense.

it just feels like somebody is trying to punish me for something i didnt do. it just feels that way. after facing that mentally unstable jerk who attacked me yesterday i didnt need this. i really fucking didn't.

a theif, how fucking ironic can you possibly get?

i just cant get a handle on myself right now so i called in. i was already depressed yesterday. now im just fucking miserable. you might just say so what 100 bucks, youll not get it back so stop moaning over it. but thats just it, i cant get it back, its 100 bucks that could have helped me get where i want to be, and some greedy fuck that couldnt just work for their money took it from me.

i really cant stop crying.

you know, when my family was on hard times, i never thought of stealing from people. if the theif knew who i was and needed some money for food, the irony is i would have helped them. but it was probably just plain greed that made whoever it was take it.

why the fuck did it have to be me?

EDIT: My mother found out from the managers that another girl had $80 doallars stolen from her, but she left her purse in a less secure location. I kept thinking of what I had spent money on the day before, I seem to recall spending $40, i forgot I had bought some fruit. Which leaves me with $80 missing exactly.

If that isn't proof it was stolen, I don't know what is.